Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Hope

Also, Hope makes them to suffer hunger and thirst in castles, cities and fortresses, when they have been assigned to valiantly guard and defend them as much as they were able, for if there were no hope a knight might not do his office.
Another quote from Ramon Lull, talking about hope. Without hope, what would keep us going from one day to the next?

I've been searching for a new job since sometime in December. Little by little my money was running out, and the job I had couldn't pay well enough for me to survive on -- and eventually couldn't pay at all. It got to the point where I was going to have to pay the rent with a credit card, which is not a road I want to go down. I've already got several thousand dollars on my cards, just to keep me and the cats fed and housed.

And I kept looking for a job. And Hope told me I'd find one, if I just kept looking; Hope kept me at my post. Every Monday I'd go to the USAJOBS site where Tim got his job, and fill out the long, involved applications for anything I thought I could do; every Wednesday I went to the Longmont newspaper's classified section for the employment special. And I sent out applications by mail and email and fax. As things got tighter I drove down Hover where all the strip malls are, and applied at every big-box retail store. And I got interviews, and most of the time I didn't hear anything afterwards, and the few times I did it was 'thank you for applying, we've decided to hire someone else and we wish you the best of luck in your job search'.

I appreciate the wishes of luck, but they weren't going to buy cat food. I could have given up, though the results would have been unpleasant. But Hope told me to keep trying.

And last week (after the second interview for the second job I'd applied to at one place) I finally got the call I'd been waiting for. 'Are you still interested in this job?' Why yes, yes I am!

I started last Wednesday. It's a warehouse job, the pay isn't great, I'm on my feet all day and well, the intellectual stimulation leaves something to be desired. But it's plenty enough to live on with a little bit left over for the credit cards, it'll get me in shape again, and I'm working with fabric. Employee discount starts in two months, and I'm narrowing down what I want to buy. The people are really nice and I'm already making friends I think I'll want to keep once I move on to another job.

Because no, this isn't what I want to be doing for the rest of my life. I'm still not sure what I do want to do, but now I have the time to figure that out. I have Hope that I'll find the right thing, in time.

8 comments:

Plain Foolish said...

*hugs* I'm so glad you found something to help keep body and soul together. (I wish you'd have let me know, though. How fast do you type? If you're reasonably quick, you could likely do transcription and use me as a reference.)

*hugs*

seeking chivalry said...

I wish I'd thought of it - transcription could be fun. I guess I do about 80 WPM; is that remotely fast enough?

Canine Diamond said...

Well, that's a gym membership you won't have to buy. I used to be a vet tech and that's another lifting/walking job. One of my coworkers once brought a pedometer and found out she'd walked seven miles in an eight-hour shift. Indoors. No wonder we were so tired.

Hey, anything that involves "fabric" and "employee discount" is at least that good, right? Congratulations!

seeking chivalry said...

Thank you! Alas, my right leg has since vetoed me working at that job, and I'm on the hunt again. This time, at least, I've got a part-time job to tide me over somewhat, but with the limitation on walking (I can be on my feet for about ten minutes before have to sit down for a while) I'm a little more limited in what I can take. :/

Still letting Hope keep me going, though...

Plain Foolish said...

Any luck with us?

seeking chivalry said...

Not a word, hun.

Aghaveagh said...

I remember temping 3 days a week with a sewing machine repair shop because I wasn't suitable for any other job. Luckily the cat would eat whatever was on sale that week. I pray God will take care of you and yours and that you will find a job that will not only give you enough money to live off of but will also nourish your spirit.

Avie

seeking chivalry said...

Thank you much, Aghaveagh! Always good to know someone else who's been through it too...